Tuesday, October 21, 2014

First Day of Volunteering at Princess Margaret Cancer Centre

After 2.5 months of jumping through hoops to get in, this morning I finally got to work my first shift. They have a rigours screening process of medical tests and confirmation of immunity before they let you attend the 3 training and tour days. So I was relieved to finally make it this far.

I got paired up with a 17 year veteran volunteer who seemed to know everyone. He had been a patient himself through the years, but now was in remission, and was keen to tell everyone he was one of them. I, on the other hand, simply say I'm volunteering to help out. I chose the Gastro-Intestinal Clinic, which I heard was one of the busiest clinics.

In my first 3 hour shift, I spoke with around 15 persons. Busy! Most of the conversations were pretty simple. We talked about the stress of getting to the clinic from out of town, like Parry Sound and Barrie. I also spoke with 2 parents who were struggling physically with their own issues and having a hard time supporting the 30-something daughter who was the patient. A few patients were ecstatic to be there, because they were in remission for a year or longer and were just back for well visits. In all, it was an interesting range of patients with a predictable range of emotions about the day.

I did have one interesting conversation with a guy around age 60 who started answering my questions about his diagnosis, and the completely changed the topic to talk about his cat. He showed me the scratch mark on his hands of where the cat had attacked him. He went on to describe the cat as totally dependent on him, since he lived alone with her, but she hated him and scratched him daily when he tried to pet her or pick her up. He had to bear the fact that she loved other women and would voluntarily curl up with them whenever they came to visit. But not him. It seemed like a symbolic conversation where the patient was reluctant to tell me directly what his life was like, but he was comfortable doing so through his cat.

In summary, I quite enjoyed myself and felt helpful. I didn't have any deep or profound conversations, but I did keep the waiting room tidied up from coffee cups and juice containers, and answered a number of questions about how to make coffee or what the next step was. I enjoyed the opportunity to just chat with patients during moments of anxiety without needing to feel like I was reporting on them or assessing them too formally. I'll see how the next few months go!

Friday, October 10, 2014

A Visit to a Death Cafe in Georgetown

No, it’s not Halloween. But on Tuesday around 6pm, I crept out of my house to go to my first ever Death CafĂ©. I confess I didn’t really tell my family where I was going, because I didn’t really want to try to answer their questions (Where are you going? Why would you want to spend an evening talking about death? What kind of strange people attend these gatherings?) Or maybe those were just my own weird questions of myself as I slunk out the door.


For those of you uninitiated to this global phenomenon, and according to www.deathcafe.com

At a Death Cafe people, often strangers, gather to eat cake, drink tea and discuss death. 
Our objective is 'to increase awareness of death with a view to helping people make the most of their (finite) lives'
A Death Cafe is a group directed discussion of death with no agenda, objectives or themes. It is a discussion group rather than a grief support or counselling session. 

So what was it really like? Well, it was a group of about 25 people who all gathered in a coffee shop in Georgetown. (Apparently 30 had RSVP'd and they had closed the numbers, but a few must have gotten cold feet at the last minute.) The group itself was pretty normal looking. All but 2 attendees (20-somethings, maybe kids of other attendees) were over the age of 50, both genders equally, and everyone keen to talk about death. I didn't see a shy person in the group. In this group it seemed that it was about 75% persons who work or volunteer in the end-of-life field in some capacity and 25% persons who simply had an interest in death because they were slightly older than the first group and experiencing lots of death first hand. 

We walked in, did introductions, ordered our own coffee and cake/cookies, and then were put in small tables of 4-5 persons. We were given a sheet of around 20 possible questions or themes to discuss. I confess our group was pretty casual with the sheet and mostly just took the conversation where it went, making sure we all had a chance to talk and then listen.  It's strange to say how quickly the time flew. We covered pet deaths, good deaths/bad  deaths we'd experienced, our families' views toward death, the many new careers in this field (Thanadoulas, Death Midwives, Contemplative Care Volunteers, Ecumenical Chaplains, Home Funeral Assistants, etc.). 

I'm almost embarrassed to say how much I felt a part of this group of death geeks. I cried a few tears, I laughed, and I thoroughly enjoyed my time with these strangers. Enough so that I promised to not only drive the 1 hour commute to go back to their next gathering, but I also committed to follow through with an idea to host a Death Cafe in my neighbourhood. Stay tuned for when that is and what that's like.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Starting Out

So today I finally activated my account offering private practice for psychotherapy. Yippee!

http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/211999

It's exciting to spend so much time thinking about what I do and how I do it. I realize that my specialty is really making change happen. No matter what area of problem brought to me by a new client, I sit and listen, and find a way to help that individual see the situation in a new way. I get so excited when I see the client make that shift. It's usually obvious to me when that happens, and I aim for one of those "clicks" in every session. Maybe just a little click, but a shift in a new direction.

To do this really requires good listening, and an ability to see the client where they are at. I think my many years of experience doing this for myself in meditation practice really helps here. I try to listen for what's not being said. I try to see the whole system where the individual operates and how the last  sentence fits into everything else. It really is about "beginner's mind" with every sentence uttered by the client in front of me.

So it's interesting to ask myself how I'm special and why someone would choose me over some other therapist. How do I relay my openness to others? How can I show that I'm interested in what they have to say? I'm convinced it's not through spouting therapy models or training credentials. I have all those, as does everyone else. But what really matters is that I can bring my heart and mind to each interaction and the client in front of me feels that.

No matter what the topic is, I want to show my empathy and compassion to the speaker. And I want to hold my heart open to hope for change, even when I'm hearing that the person has been suffering for a very long time.

Let's see when the referrals start and I'll jump on into the deep end!